It has been a long time…

It has been well over a year since I last posted on here which is terrible. I apologize from the bottom of my heart for my lack of updates. Why have a blog if I am not even going to post? I ask myself that a lot! Some days, I would start a post and just… not know what to say. It would start to sound fake and scripted, which is not what I want this blog to be about!

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So, I would just leave it.. with hopes that I would come back later and have some inspiration. That inspiration never arrived. I was dealing with severe anxiety/panic attacks/insomnia/depression that really took over my life. I was working a job that left me broken and emotionally abused on a daily basis. People don’t seem to realize that when you work in a call center, you have no control over what you can do for your customers. Your hands are tied by the company and that didn’t make the person working an idiot/stupid/bitch/monster/incompetent/etc. Those words, being told to you day in and day out, leave you feeling wilted and small. It finally got me to the point where I was literally getting sick thinking about going to work everyday. I’d either pass out, vomit or hyperventilate as I drove to work. Not a good thing! So, I quit. I was unable to work for months upon months.. I still am unable to work long periods of time without panicking because old memories/feelings would come back up. It is AWFUL.

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That being said, my new job is much better as the verbal abuse is nearly all gone. It will never be completely gone whenever you have to deal with the public but.. I cannot change other people. Mentally, I have a lot of work to be done. Physically… I am also in need of a lot of work. I gained a lot of weight dealing with my depression, panic attacks, etc. because I would gorge myself when I was stressed/anxious/etc. I have always been a comfort eater and that is a bad, bad thing. Now, I am back to ground zero and trying really hard to dig myself out of this unhealthy hole that I put myself into. There is just one tiny hitch… a new life event has reared it’s ugly head.

Yep. Of course! Why wouldn’t it?

My father was in a very bad car accident after he passed out on his way back from a doctor appointment regarding a lung infection. Just a simple little doctor’s appointment that he decided he wanted to go to by himself. He blacked out at the wheel, SUV drove off of the road, through 3 barbed wire fences, through a culvert which caused his SUV to roll a few times and stopped just before a forest of trees. Luckily, he escaped without any injury minus 5 stitches on his pinky finger. It also brought attention to a mass in his right lung which turned out to be the ugly ‘C’ monster…

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Ugh! My father was diagnosed with small cell carcinoma in his right lung. He is now undergoing chemo/radiation 5 days a week for 7 weeks in hopes to make it go away since it is an aggressive cancer. It was caused by his many (my whole life and more) years of smoking. Do not smoke. Ever. It has been a ugly, terrifying and cruel whirlwind these past few weeks (this happened August 15th) and I know it will just get better or worse from here. I will hopefully keep you all updated with everything from my diet/weightloss to my life events. Please excuse me if I go silent as life may be overbearing and I am hiding under covers.. but I am still here and I am still on this journey!

Hello May…

Ah yes, the world’s worst blogger is posting again.

Whoops!

In all honesty, I am not sure why I am such a terrible blogger. Let me tell you a little story! Once upon a time, I owned a blog and I was a fantastic blogger. I updated it almost every other day with stories, crafts, etc. and I loved it. Then one day, I decided I was tired of my domain name and felt that I could come up with something better. So, I let the domain expire, got a new domain and nope. Tried another name, still nada. The inspiration was gone. Flushed down the toilet. Expired. Since that time, I’ve had a really hard time getting my ‘groove’ back, so to say. Maybe it is because I have a mundane 9-5 type job now instead of college? I dunno!

Anyway, that is really the story of my blogging life and possibly why I have not updated recently. Not to mention the fact that I had the winter blues all winter. I did the Lurong Living 2015 Resolution Challenge but, I admit, I half assed it. I could have worked harder, that is for sure. I didn’t though. Now.. there is a 2015 Summer Challenge and I am in heavy debate if I am going to participate. I believe there is only a few more days left to sign up for it and I haven’t yet. I really want to but being that I am not a CrossFit gym member (I cannot mentally process paying $125/month for a gym membership when I can pay $35/month at a regular gym) I don’t get to participate in the CrossFit WODs and so I feel like a failure on that front. 

w1_mondayHowever, I am doing the Kayla Itsine’s Beachbody Challenge! Now.. I signed up for the Tone It Up challenge as well but I am terrible at working out with workout videos. No joke. I think it is the overly perky ‘you can do it! Only 10 reps more!’ attitude that goes on. What? You mean that is supposed to be motivational? I am sure it is but while I am struggling to finish my 30th burpee and they are still looking pretty/not out of breath, I just want to hurl a brick at my computer/TV. 

Back to the Kaya Itsine’s workout… it is a book that has 12 weeks of workouts in it that target different body parts. The exercise circuits are Monday, Wednesday, Friday and on Tuesday and Thursday you do low impact cardio like speed walking! It is just photos with instructions on how to do the workouts so I don’t have some super fit goddess telling me to keep going while I yell at them for being so damn perky about my slow death.

I am not following her diet guide though and sticking to my Paleo diet so we shall see how that works out for me. I can say that I did Day 1 Monday yesterday (since today is Tuesday) and damn! You are supposed to do each circuit as many times as you can in 7 minutes and then repeat so that you have 4 circuits so the workout only takes 28 minutes (if you survive that long). I think I will enjoy it. I will obviously give updates on here! Disclaimer: I may forget.

On a note that is not fitness related, meet my new blogging buddy.

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Isn’t she pretty? I decided that I needed something to help me blog that wasn’t as distracting as a full fledge computer would be and quite portable so that I can take it places. So far, even though I’ve only had her for a day, I like her. She is zippy enough and has a lovely keyboard and HD screen. So, welcome to the family lil Chromebook. Hope we have lots of good times together!

I took a chance…

I admit that over the past, oh, 6 years or more I have fallen for a lot of weight loss gimmicks. Am I gullible? Maybe. I guess I have always wanted to do things the easiest way possible with quick results. I guess you could say that I am impatient. I have tried a lot of the Beachbody workouts/products, SlimFast, HCG diet, Paleo, Keto, Blogilates, 10 day diet, etc. with the hopes of fast results. Now, I will say that out of ALL of those things, Paleo/Keto has been the most effective. I still really love those eating habits and don’t really think they are gimmicks to lose weight because you don’t HAVE to buy anything. I just lumped them into that group to show what I have tried when it comes to weight loss. Yes, I also have done the whole eating healthy and regular exercise thing, which is sort of what paleo/keto is anyway.. right? Right. However, I tried something else thing time. Still working out, still eating relatively healthy (I am human… I mess up sometimes!) but… I wanted to see if this thing works.

What is “that thing” that I tried? The It Works Wrap. I know, I know! I thought it was silly/stupid at first too because honestly, it sounds absurd that a wrap covered in some herbal lotion can cause you to lose weight. Now.. I don’t think it helps lose weight. I think it helps lose inches. It is supposedly not water weight, and since I haven’t lost any weight (I guess I didn’t weigh myself so I cannot say that for sure) I have lost 4 inches in 60 hours. Yep. That is right. 4 inches.

 

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Now results take 72 total hours to complete so I may lose a bit more (72 hrs is 10pm for me) but I’m happy with what I see so far! I bought a second wrap which I will also put on tonight so I can tell you how that goes as well. You are supposed to drink half of your body weight in water… which I haven’t done so this time around, I’m drinking all the water to see if that increases my results. I do not sell this it works wrap so I have no affiliation with the company, It Works, but I wanted to tell you my little review and show you the results. Fantastic!

Update – 10/27/2014

Well, I put on wrap #2 on Saturday night at 10pm CST. I am down one more inch (5 total!) and here is the progress!

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Week One – Done!

Well, week one of the challenge is over with and complete. I did pretty well, I think! I thought I would give you guys a rundown of what I ate during week one and maybe for the weeks to come (this week included!) Basically, I eat the same meal for 5 days in a row. Not joking. I meal plan on Saturdays, get groceries and then cook on Sundays. It is really the only way that I will survive the week without eating poorly. It’s sad but it’s something I have come to terms with.

Week 1 Breakfast:

– Egg Muffin (eggs, green pepper, turkey sausage)

– 1 large banana

Week 1 Lunch

– Salad (lettuce, tomato, green pepper, cucumber, slices of chicken, hard boiled egg, mustard for dressing)

* yes, I just put a half a tablespoon of mustard on top of the salad and sort of give it a good shake in it’s Ziploc container. It works.

– Organic Applesauce (just apples and water)

Week 1 Dinner

– 1 Cup of Broccoli

– 1 Porkchop

The weekends were the hardest and I found myself munching on sunflower seeds a lot. I also ordered a Lettuce Wrap from Jimmie Johns but I forgot to remove the mayo so… negative points for me 🙁 I really, really wanted sweets over the weekend but I held off! I did have a few larbars though… the Apple Pie ones are so good.

Over-all, I ended up having a successful week one! I lost 3.2lbs and lost 2.5 inches on my hips, .5 inches on my chest, .75 inches on my waist, and .625 inches on my thighs. I am hoping for just of a successful week 2! Wish me luck!

What Is This?!

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Waking up to a “wintery wonderland” is not a good start for a Monday. It’s rather bizarre because on Friday it was 70°F outside and now today, it was only 39°F with snow. It all eventually melted, for the most part, but still… it didn’t make me happy! I just want it to be 60°F or warmer going forward. It’s time for spring!

The Weight Loss for Warriors challenge is growing closer and I am stocking up on frozen vegetables. My whole freezer is full at this point so now I just need to start stocking up on meat! I think the hardest will be lunch because I usually eat soup and that won’t be an option unless I make my own with vegetables and chicken. I probably could do that, it will really all be a matter of how lazy I am. It wouldn’t be shocking to me at all if I survive strictly on chicken, frozen vegetables, shrimp, eggs, and pork. I’m sort of picky about what I like to eat! I know, I know… I need to stop being lazy and make some darn recipes! I will try to do that either this week or next. I promise.

That’s all I really had to say at this point. I have been contemplating doing vlogs for the WLFW but I haven’t decided if I want to yet or not. Stay tuned!

I Need Chocolate

For the past few days, I have been battling on and off with a migraine that likes to come in waves. It will be there in the morning, fade out to a headache by lunch and then come back as the afternoon progresses. Today hasn’t been as bad as the other days, as it is just an annoying headache right now but I am so ready for the pain to stop! I don’t know if it is the fluctuating weather or what, but March/April always sucks hardcore for my headaches.

Anyway, I am also broke as a joke this week. It sucks. It’s my own fault for not working very much but meh. In other words, I didn’t have enough money to get groceries this week. No pity parties needed! I have enough food that I am able to eat, it’s just food that I am not craving haha. Such first world problems, right? Well, the one bad part is that my sweet tooth has been throwing a fit and it has made me crabby. Therefore, I had to find a solution… and I did. I had enough ingredients to make myself a brownie pie! A what? A brownie pie. Basically, brownies but I didn’t have enough ingredients for a full pan so I put it into a pie pan. Yep, I am a problem solver. Anyway, these brownies are amazing and are absolutely, 100% gluten free! They are just shy of being paleo because they require agave nectar. Boo. I am sure you could use honey instead, but I haven’t tried it. Maybe when I am not broke!

They require very little ingredients and take about an hour to make. They taste absolutely delicious too! The first time I made these, I was very iffy on how they would taste because they don’t use any flour. That is right. Flour free! How? Easy. You take almond butter, eggs, cocoa powder, agave nectar, salt, vanilla extract and mix, mix, mix! Then you throw it into a brownie pan (or pie pan) and bake for 35 minutes at 350°. Or, if you have an oven like mine, 55 minutes. My oven is terrible. If you want the real recipe, you can go here.

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It is Finally Spring!

We made it! Winter has finally left us! Time to breakout the spring clothes, right? I wish. Today was a lovely 55°F but unfortunately, tomorrow is going to be in the 20’s again. I swear that this bouncing of cold and somewhat nice temperatures is making my brain hate me. I have been having headaches on and off all week. It’s quite ridiculous.

Anyway, I have been chugging away on this 300 swing challenge and they are still not any easier! I’ve started throwing in some other moves after the swings because I don’t feel that the swings are doing all that much for muscle tone. I have also been practicing with my hoop for 30 minutes to an hour a day though I can only do so much from my apartment. I wish it was summer! Though, would I really go outside and hoop? Maybe? I haven’t decided on that answer yet.

Speaking of which, I have been watching a lot of hooping videos on YouTube lately. Trying to teach myself new tricks, I guess? However, there are so many girls who post videos that are all, “yay this is me at 4 months!” and they are hooping as if they had been for years. What?! How many hours a day do you all practice?! Seriously, tell me. I thought I was doing well with 30 min to an hour a day! Guess not because I clearly cannot do some of the moves that you all can at 4 months. Grr. I’m a competitive person so I feel that I should be just as good or better since I have been doing this for… uh… 9 months now. Blah.

Food wise, I have been eating lots of tomatoes this week. I’m not sure why, to be honest. I think it’s because I am trying to cut back on sweet things (to cure my sweet tooth) and tomatoes are sort of sweet, so they kill that craving? haha. Another question that I don’t have the answer to! However, I have stopped drinking caffeine! All I have been drinking is water and, okay maybe not all caffeine, green tea. It’s sort of a miracle really because I am not a morning person. No matter how early I go to bed, I absolutely cannot get up in the mornings. I am the worst at waking up. I grumble to myself a lot and stumble around as though I am really drunk for a good 10 minutes. Everybody would laugh at me if they could see how I react getting up at 6:30am! My grandmother used to tell me that when I was older I would love getting up early. Wrong. I am now 30 years old (almost 31, eeek) and I still do not love getting up early. What is the secret to it? I hope it’s not going to bed at 7pm because that will never happen.

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At least I got half

A week into the 300 swing challenge! I will say that 300 swings is a lot harder than it originally sounded when I decided to do this challenge. After about 75, my heart usually feels as though it is going to jump right out of my chest and I have to stop to drink water. The second set of 100 is the hardest, no doubt! At least with the third set you know you are almost done.

I also have a sore right knee. Not sure if it’s sore because of the billions of squatting that I have been doing or not. It’s not a painful sore either, just a… muscles a bit tight feeling. I hope that makes sense! Anyway, I might have to drop from 15lb kettle bell to a 10lb kettle bell to see if that helps ease the uncomfortable feeling that it currently has.

The weekend is also almost here which means a whole new week of meal planning. I have shrimp and fish in my freezer so maybe a week of seafood? How does that sound? I dunno! My problem is that seafood isn’t very filling, at least not to me, and it just leaves me craving more! My biggest downfall right now though is sugar. I keep eating fruit to cure the cravings and while fruit isn’t bad for you… I like to eat a lot of it right before I go to bed. Probably not the best time to eat it but oh well! Still better than junk food, right? Right.

300 Swing Challenge

First off, Happy March! Summer is only four months away now which seems like forever when you live in a state that is  still getting pummeled by snow and freezing temperatures. I just want to wake up one morning, not see snow and not have to freeze my tush off to go warm up my car. It would be lovely, if that could happen!

Now for the real topic of interest: 300 Swing Challenge. I was surfing my favorite health blogs when I stumbled upon this 300 swing challenge that is being sponsored by Breaking Muscle. If you are interested for the link, it is here. It started march 1st but it’s never to late to start doing it (even if you cannot sign up). It really doesn’t take all that much time to do 300 swings but I cannot do them in one set. I was doing them in clumps. I see that people have been doing reps of 12 x 25 which I guess would work but, I prefer 100 x 3 🙂 If you do the math, without having a heart rate monitor, and just going by the 300 swings = 947 calories burned, that is 315 calories per 100 swings. That, alone, is pretty darn impressive! However, I hate calorie counting and think that it’s a total waste of time. Why? Because I would rather focus on how many carbs/protein/fat grams I am consuming rather than how many calories are in a certain piece of food. I mean, if you eat 100 calories of cookies vs 100 calories of fruit, which do you think will be better for you? Exactly.

I also discovered that baking pork chops with a bit of beef broth = amazing. Seriously, try it. It is delicious!

French… Scrambled Eggs?

The other day I was craving french toast, but when you don’t eat bread… french toast is pretty impossible to make! However, I was craving it hardcore and needed to have some french toast without being sick to my stomach so I decided to try something. I wasn’t sure it would work because I never heard of anybody making this before (and I apologize if this is old news) so I decided to give it a go.

What if, you made the french toast mix… and turned it into scrambled eggs?! Crazy, I know! So, I did it and I could hear angels singing when I took that first bite. It was exactly like french toast, minus the bread part! Seriously, it tastes amazing and I think I am in heaven now because not only does it taste amazing but it’s quick and easy… and Paleo! It’s seriously heaven in the form of scrambled eggs.

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Paleo French Scrambled Eggs
The amazing comfort of french toast... minus the toast.
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Prep Time
5 min
Cook Time
10 min
Total Time
15 min
Prep Time
5 min
Cook Time
10 min
Total Time
15 min
Ingredients
  1. 2 Eggs
  2. 2 Tbsp Almond Milk
  3. 1 Tsp Ground Cinnamon
Instructions
  1. Put all of your ingredients into a bowl and wisk the ingredients until it's well blended together. Pour the egg mixture into a skillet over medium heat. Keep your spatula moving in a figure eight motion until you get fluffy scrambled eggs! Put onto a plate, drizzle with maple syrup or your favorite french toast topping! Eat.
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