It has been a long time…

It has been well over a year since I last posted on here which is terrible. I apologize from the bottom of my heart for my lack of updates. Why have a blog if I am not even going to post? I ask myself that a lot! Some days, I would start a post and just… not know what to say. It would start to sound fake and scripted, which is not what I want this blog to be about!

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So, I would just leave it.. with hopes that I would come back later and have some inspiration. That inspiration never arrived. I was dealing with severe anxiety/panic attacks/insomnia/depression that really took over my life. I was working a job that left me broken and emotionally abused on a daily basis. People don’t seem to realize that when you work in a call center, you have no control over what you can do for your customers. Your hands are tied by the company and that didn’t make the person working an idiot/stupid/bitch/monster/incompetent/etc. Those words, being told to you day in and day out, leave you feeling wilted and small. It finally got me to the point where I was literally getting sick thinking about going to work everyday. I’d either pass out, vomit or hyperventilate as I drove to work. Not a good thing! So, I quit. I was unable to work for months upon months.. I still am unable to work long periods of time without panicking because old memories/feelings would come back up. It is AWFUL.

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That being said, my new job is much better as the verbal abuse is nearly all gone. It will never be completely gone whenever you have to deal with the public but.. I cannot change other people. Mentally, I have a lot of work to be done. Physically… I am also in need of a lot of work. I gained a lot of weight dealing with my depression, panic attacks, etc. because I would gorge myself when I was stressed/anxious/etc. I have always been a comfort eater and that is a bad, bad thing. Now, I am back to ground zero and trying really hard to dig myself out of this unhealthy hole that I put myself into. There is just one tiny hitch… a new life event has reared it’s ugly head.

Yep. Of course! Why wouldn’t it?

My father was in a very bad car accident after he passed out on his way back from a doctor appointment regarding a lung infection. Just a simple little doctor’s appointment that he decided he wanted to go to by himself. He blacked out at the wheel, SUV drove off of the road, through 3 barbed wire fences, through a culvert which caused his SUV to roll a few times and stopped just before a forest of trees. Luckily, he escaped without any injury minus 5 stitches on his pinky finger. It also brought attention to a mass in his right lung which turned out to be the ugly ‘C’ monster…

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Ugh! My father was diagnosed with small cell carcinoma in his right lung. He is now undergoing chemo/radiation 5 days a week for 7 weeks in hopes to make it go away since it is an aggressive cancer. It was caused by his many (my whole life and more) years of smoking. Do not smoke. Ever. It has been a ugly, terrifying and cruel whirlwind these past few weeks (this happened August 15th) and I know it will just get better or worse from here. I will hopefully keep you all updated with everything from my diet/weightloss to my life events. Please excuse me if I go silent as life may be overbearing and I am hiding under covers.. but I am still here and I am still on this journey!

Hello Day One!

proud_participant Well, I did it. I signed up for the 2015 Lurong Living Summertime Challenge. I was in heavy debate with myself but ugh, why the hell not. This will be my third challenge with Lurong Living so may as well keep going.. right?? However, I am going to be doing my Kayla Itsines‘ workouts with the challenge though I could probably do the evaluation WOD if I wanted to. We shall see.. again.. debating with myself! It is a real struggle sometimes in my head, guys. A real struggle!

Week one of her workouts were pretty good. I realized a few things and that was I hate jumping and I hate pushups which means I really hate burpees. I mostly hate jumping because if I have a headache, I feel like my head is going to explode and there really isn’t many alternatives to all the jumping her workouts consist of!

Today, for example.. I had to do jump lunges, burpees, skip rope, and jump squats. I have a killer migraine that I took medication for so.. yea. I think I will be revisiting the workout tomorrow since I feel like I half assed it today. Sorry, not sorry. I also stayed in bed far longer than I probably would have liked to but again.. migraine. I seriously woke up at 7:30am, groaned, rolled over, grabbed a pillow, shoved it between my head and the wall, took another pillow and covered my face with it, and went back to bed. I woke up at 1pm. If you are wondering, I have Mondays off. Mondays are my Sundays while the world is off at work.. I am not. However, while the world is enjoying their Saturdays.. I am not. The struggle of a Tuesday-Saturday work week!

Next weekend though, I have Friday-Tuesday off! Woo! I am pretty excited though I am a photographer at a wedding on Saturday. Okay, assistant photographer. Still.. going to be at a wedding so I do not work that day… technically. I won’t be able to workout though either so that will suck but what can you do. Hopefully my paleo diet will stay intact on that day! It will be hard but I can do it. You can’t see me, but I totally flexed at that moment!

Before I forget, I was on point with my diet today! I didn’t have a single naughty food today. Proud! Anyway, hope everyone else had a fantastically successful day today!

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Funny how things go around in circles in life, isn’t it?

If you recall, last year at around this time I was diagnosed with a gigantic kidney stone and had to have surgery to remove it. Okay, okay.. I know it isn’t ‘surgery’ but I was put under and things were put inside me so in my mind it is close enough. Anyway, the point I am getting at is that I now have two kidney stones and they both are too large to pass naturally. Fantastic. The pain has been increasingly bad the last few days and I am not a happy camper about it. Plus, I can’t quite go to work because I am one crabby person. Nobody wants to deal with Nena in pain. Trust me.

I also have to assist my sister in a wedding photoshoot in a few weeks time so I cannot have my procedure until after that point. This means that I have to suffer for a bit until that procedure can be done. I can do it! Survive the suffering, I mean!

Now on to less depressing things. I did my Wednesday workout for the Kayla Itsines’ Beach Body Guide and it was NOT any easier. So many push-ups! However, I got it done. I feel like I need to do more though.. but we shall see. So far I haven’t noticed any difference but I was not expecting to since it is only Day 3.

Happy Wednesday, All!!

Hello May…

Ah yes, the world’s worst blogger is posting again.

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In all honesty, I am not sure why I am such a terrible blogger. Let me tell you a little story! Once upon a time, I owned a blog and I was a fantastic blogger. I updated it almost every other day with stories, crafts, etc. and I loved it. Then one day, I decided I was tired of my domain name and felt that I could come up with something better. So, I let the domain expire, got a new domain and nope. Tried another name, still nada. The inspiration was gone. Flushed down the toilet. Expired. Since that time, I’ve had a really hard time getting my ‘groove’ back, so to say. Maybe it is because I have a mundane 9-5 type job now instead of college? I dunno!

Anyway, that is really the story of my blogging life and possibly why I have not updated recently. Not to mention the fact that I had the winter blues all winter. I did the Lurong Living 2015 Resolution Challenge but, I admit, I half assed it. I could have worked harder, that is for sure. I didn’t though. Now.. there is a 2015 Summer Challenge and I am in heavy debate if I am going to participate. I believe there is only a few more days left to sign up for it and I haven’t yet. I really want to but being that I am not a CrossFit gym member (I cannot mentally process paying $125/month for a gym membership when I can pay $35/month at a regular gym) I don’t get to participate in the CrossFit WODs and so I feel like a failure on that front. 

w1_mondayHowever, I am doing the Kayla Itsine’s Beachbody Challenge! Now.. I signed up for the Tone It Up challenge as well but I am terrible at working out with workout videos. No joke. I think it is the overly perky ‘you can do it! Only 10 reps more!’ attitude that goes on. What? You mean that is supposed to be motivational? I am sure it is but while I am struggling to finish my 30th burpee and they are still looking pretty/not out of breath, I just want to hurl a brick at my computer/TV. 

Back to the Kaya Itsine’s workout… it is a book that has 12 weeks of workouts in it that target different body parts. The exercise circuits are Monday, Wednesday, Friday and on Tuesday and Thursday you do low impact cardio like speed walking! It is just photos with instructions on how to do the workouts so I don’t have some super fit goddess telling me to keep going while I yell at them for being so damn perky about my slow death.

I am not following her diet guide though and sticking to my Paleo diet so we shall see how that works out for me. I can say that I did Day 1 Monday yesterday (since today is Tuesday) and damn! You are supposed to do each circuit as many times as you can in 7 minutes and then repeat so that you have 4 circuits so the workout only takes 28 minutes (if you survive that long). I think I will enjoy it. I will obviously give updates on here! Disclaimer: I may forget.

On a note that is not fitness related, meet my new blogging buddy.

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Isn’t she pretty? I decided that I needed something to help me blog that wasn’t as distracting as a full fledge computer would be and quite portable so that I can take it places. So far, even though I’ve only had her for a day, I like her. She is zippy enough and has a lovely keyboard and HD screen. So, welcome to the family lil Chromebook. Hope we have lots of good times together!

Bring It On, 2015!

If anybody remembers, back in April 2014, I signed up for the Weight Loss for Warriors challenge at Lurong Living. I wasn’t able to complete it due to my kidney surgery and I was so upset by that. When Lurong Living’s next challenge came out in the summer, I was unable to participate because I was not a member of a CrossFit gym. Once again, I was very upset. Well, by very upset I mean that I was disappointed that I was unable to complete it. Then, I got an email about the 2015 Lurong Living Resolution Challenge and… I was able to sign up!! They didn’t require you to be a member of a CrossFit gym (though you are ineligible for the prizes if you aren’t affiliated with one) which is okay with me. So, I signed up! Starting January 16th, 2015 I will be participating in this brand new challenge and I am going to kick some major Nena booty during it.

 

While I am in no way, shape or form, affiliated with Lurong Living.. I do like promoting healthy contests and this challenge is amazing. Seriously. They offer so much support, recipes, contests, workouts, etc. that it is so easy to keep on track. Plus, if you like a friendly competition.. this is the way to go. Why not start your 2015 off the right way with a healthy weight loss challenge? Stick to your new year’s resolution this time around and let them guide you! You can do it! I believe in you.

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Happy Halloween!

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It is Halloween and I am at home with no plans to go out tonight. Very sad. However, that is okay… I tend to over do it on drinking and eating bad foods and since I am trying to lose weight… I decided to avoid the temptation. I will be watching all the scary movies tonight though! I love horror movies! I hope everybody else has a fantastic and safe Halloween though!

My website decided to pull a trick on me today instead of a treat. I went to update this, oh about two hours ago, and it wouldn’t let me in. It kept stating that there was an error while establishing a connection and that I couldn’t login! So, being the impatient person that I am, I called the GoDaddy technical support. A very friendly gentleman answered the phone, I gave him my domain name, and he tells me it is working fine for him. I am all ‘what?’ and hit refresh and like magic my website loads. It never fails. As soon as I have a second set of eyes look at something that doesn’t work for me, it magically starts working again and I feel like an idiot.

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I think the worst was that the first post that you see when you visit this site is my before and after photos from the It Works Wrap! Oh well. I am proud of my results and that is what this post is really about… to show you the final results after TWO wraps! I lost a total of 7 inches during that time and my before & after is quite amazing. I’m stunned, to be honest. I said that after the first wrap too but I am still just as stunned with the second wrap. So stunned that I ordered two more wraps to do my hip/love handle area… yep. I am highly considering selling this miracle product because of the results that I had. So, no further ado.. here are my final results.

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I took a chance…

I admit that over the past, oh, 6 years or more I have fallen for a lot of weight loss gimmicks. Am I gullible? Maybe. I guess I have always wanted to do things the easiest way possible with quick results. I guess you could say that I am impatient. I have tried a lot of the Beachbody workouts/products, SlimFast, HCG diet, Paleo, Keto, Blogilates, 10 day diet, etc. with the hopes of fast results. Now, I will say that out of ALL of those things, Paleo/Keto has been the most effective. I still really love those eating habits and don’t really think they are gimmicks to lose weight because you don’t HAVE to buy anything. I just lumped them into that group to show what I have tried when it comes to weight loss. Yes, I also have done the whole eating healthy and regular exercise thing, which is sort of what paleo/keto is anyway.. right? Right. However, I tried something else thing time. Still working out, still eating relatively healthy (I am human… I mess up sometimes!) but… I wanted to see if this thing works.

What is “that thing” that I tried? The It Works Wrap. I know, I know! I thought it was silly/stupid at first too because honestly, it sounds absurd that a wrap covered in some herbal lotion can cause you to lose weight. Now.. I don’t think it helps lose weight. I think it helps lose inches. It is supposedly not water weight, and since I haven’t lost any weight (I guess I didn’t weigh myself so I cannot say that for sure) I have lost 4 inches in 60 hours. Yep. That is right. 4 inches.

 

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Now results take 72 total hours to complete so I may lose a bit more (72 hrs is 10pm for me) but I’m happy with what I see so far! I bought a second wrap which I will also put on tonight so I can tell you how that goes as well. You are supposed to drink half of your body weight in water… which I haven’t done so this time around, I’m drinking all the water to see if that increases my results. I do not sell this it works wrap so I have no affiliation with the company, It Works, but I wanted to tell you my little review and show you the results. Fantastic!

Update – 10/27/2014

Well, I put on wrap #2 on Saturday night at 10pm CST. I am down one more inch (5 total!) and here is the progress!

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Day 2 of the Paleo Challenge

Okay, so I know that I did not post yesterday which would have been Day 1 but that is because I really didn’t eat very paleo yesterday. I know, I know! Such a fail to Day 1 but hey, it wasn’t ALL awful food but, still, it wasn’t Paleo. I had rice noodles in a mushroom soup (which was delicious) and a biscuit. Yea. I felt like it was a fail day so it really wasn’t worth telling you about since… well… all my prior days were fail days as well. Today is much better though, food wise. Everything else? Not better.

This is what I consumed today:

Breakfast: 2 slices of bacon, 1 scrambled egg, 1 apple

Lunch: Chicken & broccoli

Dinner: Large Salad (lettuce, cucumber, cherry tomatoes, slices of ham, bacon) with 3 fried eggs over top of it

As well as lots and lots of water! I have not worked out yet but that will happen once I write this post. I will probably hula hoop for 30 minutes and then do some sort of kettlebell routine (haven’t decided which yet!) as well as lunges, plank, push ups, etc. Exciting, I know! Whatever works though, right? And this works for me. Hope everybody else is having a fantastic Tuesday!

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Hard to get back on track!

So last time I spoke to everybody, I was recovering from my kidney stone procedure and trying to get back on track after a month of not being able to do much of anything. Sadly, I am still struggling to get on track but that stops now, or at least this weekend. I know, why not NOW?! Because I have to get groceries and I have no Paleo foods really in my kitchen. Hold.. that is a lie. I have chicken breasts, lettuce and steamed broccoli in the freezer…

Anyway, the point to this post is that in Mayish/June, I was doing the Weight Loss For Warriors Challenge that LurongLiving had out. Unfortunately, the last two weeks of the challenge fell on my kidney stone procedure time and I was unable to successfully complete the challenge due to physical restrictions (aka I could not get out of bed outside of waddling slowly to the bathroom) and I was unable to workout (obviously). This really bummed me out because I LOVED the challenge and was so pumped to do it! It motivated me and kept me going! Well… they have a new challenge out and that is the Paleo Challenge. Sadly, I cannot join it because I am not a member of a CrossFit gym (money reasons as well as I’m not quite physically fit enough to do that stuff!)

So, I am going to do something that will take lots of mental strength on my part and that is… I am going to unofficially join that challenge. Yep. I won’t get prizes, I won’t be ranked, I won’t have a fancy profile under their website but that is okay! Why? Because it will give me a time frame and I still have access to the WLFW website so I can get recipes off of there, as well. Anyway, it starts September 15th and I think it is a 6 week challenge. It’s an 8 week challenge… It’s a shame that I can’t officially join it but again, CrossFit is expensive. Like… $110/month expensive. Hopefully next Spring they have the WLFW challenge and I can join that again but until then… unofficial challenge, here I come lol.

I will be posting my process here so this will be my ‘fancy profile’ hehe. Maybe next time, LurongLiving!

Kidney Stones…

Well, the last two weeks of the Weight Loss for Warriors challenge did not go down as I had hoped it would! A few weeks ago, I had been diagnosed with a giant kidney stone in my left kidney. When I say giant, I mean giant. It was 1.7cm which was not going to come out on it’s own. So, I met with my urologist and she advised me that I had to have surgery. At the time, which was May 20th, I had advised to them that I wanted it done on June 17th which was after my birthday and seemed like it would be far enough away that I would be able to wrap my brain around it. See, I hate needles or anything that means a foreign object will be inside me. It freaks me out. A lot. Especially, IVs!

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Anyway, on May 30th I got another kidney stone attack. If you have ever had kidney stones, you will know that it is the most excruciating pain that you will ever experience (I’ve never been in labor but I hear that it’s tied with that). Nothing kills the pain outside of maybe morphine or some other really strong pain medicine that a hospital has to provide. Anyway, this attack lasted 22hrs and I realized I couldn’t do it anymore so I called them and moved it up to June 3rd. The procedure was a Extracorporeal Shock Wave Lithotripsy, where I am laid on a bed with a water pad behind my back and the machine pushes sound waves into my kidney area to smash the kidney stone. They also had to insert a stent, which is a tube that runs from my kidney to my bladder.

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So, yesterday at 6:45am, I woke up and I was at the hospital about 7:20am for my surgery which started at 7:45am. The freakiest moments were when I had to have the IV put in. It was being put in my hand, and I freaked out. I had a mini panic attack and omg, I thought the world was going to end. However, once they got it in, I calmed down. When I got upstairs to where the surgery is performed, the anesthesiologists gave me some anxiety medicine which kicked right in. It was amazing. That was the last thing that I remember… I woke up with oxygen on, and I felt like I just woke up from a nap. No pain but omg, I had to use the bathroom SO bad. It hurt so bad! They gave me a bedpan but yea, that wasn’t going to happen so I told them I’d wait til I got back downstairs. Finally, I got to go to the bathroom and it hurt. A lot. It still hurts! I can’t walk or use the bathroom without sharp stabbing pains shooting through my bladder. Needless to say, the stent that is in hurts like nobodies business when I have to use the bathroom or stand/walk. They gave me vicodin but apparently, I am immune to the Vicodin because it doesn’t do jack for me! It’s so annoying.

However, I am not allowed to do strenuous exercise (not that I could anyway!) or lift anything over 20lbs (again… couldn’t if I wanted to because bending down also hurts). I also have very little appetite so I am not in the mood for full fledged meals yet. Basically, my last two weeks of the Weight Loss for Warrior challenge are down the pooper! Oh well, once I feel better, I will stick to my healthy food eating and continue to progress for more weight loss.